Something this way comes continued

My heart is heavy this afternoon. I'm incredibly sad. Hard to walk. My cheeks feel droopy and my eyesight is blurring. What is wrong? I did have a feeling before I left to see her but I wanted to meet with the hopes of making a new friend. A friend that shared a love of horses. The conversation was akward; hard to maintain eye contact. The highlight was the big warm blooded Hanavarian gelding. He was nuzzling and open. Just like all animals. Connection is always honest, non-judgmental, happy to be with you, comfortable. With a hug (she says goodbye, but the hug was cold. Not, genuine. Extending my hand may have set the cold mood, but the answering hug was worse. Was it me? Was I exuding the uncomfortable air that hung between us? Tha feeling won't go away. I'm just going to let the blue funk take me. From past experiences, I can't fight it. It always comes hard, sweeping, engulfing.